Walmart totally rocked my socks tonight!!

$160.89 for all of this but Walmart gave me back $4.82!! I will write about my experience in the AM. This lady went ape shit because she had to wait in line.

Are you there Heaven? It's me, Ryder

Ryder cut his finger with a razor blade today. It was bleeding everywhere and he was scream crying. He says to me
"I think I need to go to Heaven"
"Why?"
"So I can be perfect again."

Oh! I freakin love that kid! I'm glad he's listening to the teachings of the Church.

Coming Home

Oh my gosh! It's so stressful to watch. I have to make sure that the kids are fed and watered and in bed. I have to pop a few Tylenol's because for some reason, every time I cry I get a headache.Make sure I go to the bathroom, get a snack and something to drink. haha

I personally don't know anyone in the Army. Even so, I am grateful for them and everything they do. I was explaining the Army to the kids the other day. R was asking about it and what it meant. R said he wants to join the Army.....................

I am way too selfish to have my baby join the Army. I know it's an amazing thing to do, but damn! I don't want my baby to get hurt or die. I know he's only six, and maybe he was just saying it. Because at this age, he wants to do everything! I wouldn't want to be apart from him for that long. And not being able to talk to him everyday is enough to kill me.

I wouldn't want my husband to join either. I hate being apart from him. I don't think I could handle being a single parent for that long. Because that's how it is. You're a single parent while they are off to war. It would be very hard to let him go. I would be a nervous wreck if anyone in my family chose to join.

My stockpile

Now, before any of you pass your judgment, let me tell you that in all honestly I give A LOT away. I really do! I honestly am a good hearted person and I love to help others out. It may look like I'm a hoarder but ask anyone I have given stuff to and ask them how much I have saved them.

YOU can have this stockpile plus a lot more if you started couponing!
All of this plus all that I have given away from only 6mo of couponing.
Let me know if you want to get started!

My bike :-)

Ta Da!

I had to buy a freakin helmet because the twins are GREAT at pointing out how big a hypocrite I am. I can't make them wear one and not wear one. Husband thinks I look dumb BUT I need to be a good example, right?

So, I've decided to get a bike....

PHOTO

Yup, it's true. I am also going to buy a trailer to put on the back of it so I can pull the babies when I ride my bike with the kids to school. What I'm really wanting to do is loose weight. Also, I am hoping that getting out everyday will give me some energy!

Why did I let myself get this big? Ugh, it's disgusting. I don't want to look like this anymore. I don't want to not be able to fit in the theater seats anymore. This is thee fattest I have ever been and I am disgusted with myself. I mean, I have never had low self esteem before. I have always had super cute boyfriends, and I have a hot and sexy husband. I guess I just never cared before, I don't know why I have decided to start caring now.

I want to be able to play with my kids without getting tired so fast, I want to be able to hike Bridal Veil Falls with them. They love being outside, and I hate it! I don't want to anymore. I want to do fun things with my kids, but I'm so lazy and stuck in a rut. I am hoping that getting out everyday to take the kids to school will make me want to get out more and more.

The husband says they make bikes for fat people, but I have called around and they say no. So, if you know the answer to that, please, do tell! I want to get the right one for me!

I love couponing!

I really do. It has been a lot of fun and I still get so high walking out of the store with all my free stuff or close to it!

Like all this pasta... Smiths actually paid me $3.03 to take this out of the store. I'm not quite sure how it happened but, Ill take it! At least it's healthy pasta right?

And I only paid $6 and some change for the jammies. Everything else I got .03 cents in overage and it went towards the jammies.

Exciting right??

I also use a search engine called Swagbucks. You sign up, download the tool bar and as your're doing anyways, search everything on the toolbar. It will then bring up another page almost like google, click on the link that you want and it brings you to the webpage you were looking for. Randomly you earn swagbucks, they have a swagbuck store and for 450 swagbucks you can buy a $5 Amazon gift card. You can earn 5 gift cards a month. And I do. I have used them for Diapers, that's how I get all my diapers and wipes for free! I haven't paid for diapers or wipes for about 3 months now. Please go sign up now!! You're already searching the internet right?? Might as well win some free Gift cards. And they don't have to be Amazon, they have a whole store and you can buy pretty much anything from it.

Lemme know if you have any questions!

I can't wait until Summer

We bought the Passes Of All Passes. They include unlimited entrance to Trafalga and 7 Peaks. Owls games and 10% off of food at 7 Peaks. I'm excited to go to 7 Peaks as much as I want to this summer. Going just one day will definitely pay for the pass.

I'm also buying a bike and trailer thing. I really need to loose weight. I went to Lane Bryant this weekend and was trying some things on and cannot believe how big I have let myself get! This is thee fattest I have ever been. I don't want to be fat anymore, I don't want to be tired all the time. I think that getting out and riding the bikes with the kids to school and back will give me some energy and I'll be able to keep my house clean! HA!

I'm excited to be tan too! I need to find another swim suit too. I don't think mine from like 5 years ago is going to fit anymore. I will probably have to go to LB, and hopefully they will have some cute ones. I don't think fat people should be able to wear busy prints or bright colors. They look disgusting.. I don't want to be "one of those" fat people.I bought this super cute bomber jacket from LB for $6.99 down from $149.00!!!! That's so freaking exciting! I have NEVER found my size on that much of a clearance.

I am gratful for the internet.

We have been without internet for a few because the USB got broken, and when I went to buy a new, better one. They were all out. Every.single.time. I went in. So frustrating! I hate Cricket!

I didn't realize how much I loved and needed it until I was without. I rely on it a lot. To do couponing, to look up numbers, to look up words, to look up movies, etc.

Short and sweet, that's how I like 'em.

I am so grateful for my kids

I believe I was born to be a mother. Even though I never had a decent role model, I think I'm doing okay. Even though I'm not very good at it, I think that my kids will grow up to be decent adults. I try to teach them love, compassion, and diversity.

When I first became a mother at 17, I didn't know what I was going to do. I was scared to death. I am so glad that I was able to choose adoption.  He has the most amazing parents and I'm glad My Heavenly Father pointed me towards them.

I'll admit it, when I first had them I was so not ready to be a mom. I still wanted to do whatever, whenever I wanted. I wanted  boyfriends, I wanted to hang out, I wanted to go to movies and  the kids were holding me back. Sherrie for sure thought I was going to leave. And when I did, she was going to snatch them up, adopt them, and even change Ryan's name to Bennett... I love my kids, and am trying to do my very best by them. I am trying to be a good mom, I know I don't always accomplish that, but I think that, I could be worse.

After I had the twins I begged my Dr. to give me a hysterectomy, I never wanted to have kids again, I didn't want to take the chance of having twins again. Thank God they told me no, that I was so young, and when I get married I might want to have more with my husband. I am so glad that the hubs talked me into having my baby. She is thee best! The twins love her so much, and she loves them just as much.

I am so grateful that they chose me to be their mom. They knew it wasn't going to be easy, but they chose me anyways.

I am grateful for my husband.

I truly, am a lucky girl to be able to call him my husband. I don't know if you know this but I can be super bitchy sometimes. Sometimes, I just can't be pleased. Even then, on my bitchiest of days, he will still kiss me good bye and tell me he loves me and head out to his graveyard shift. He gives me anything I want. He tells me no. He sticks up for me. He tells me when I am wrong.

He is an amazing father. I couldn't have chosen a better role model for my kids.I am grateful that he can work the graveyard shift and come home and feed the kids breakfast. I am grateful that he stays awake to see them off to school. I am grateful that he stays awake so he can see us and hang out with us before he has to go back to bed.

I am grateful for him being here through some of the hardest parts of my life. I am grateful that he chooses to love me and come home to me everyday. I am grateful for how hard he works to provide for us.

Babe, I know I don't say this enough but I appreciate you and am so grateful to have met you and can't wait to spend Time and All Eternity with you!

I love you.

What Am I Greatful For?

I am stealing the idea from her. I decided to write what I am grateful for post everyday in March.

Today I am grateful for my sister Nikki and my nephew Tristan. I love them so much! I love having my sister over, we laugh about the most dumbest things! We have a lot of fun with each other, and I am so grateful for our relationship.
I am really grateful that she allows me to have a relationship with my nephew. Even though I hate kids, I sure do love that one! :-) I wish we could live closer to each other so I can help her out. I would love to watch my nephew while she is at work or school. I would love to be her outlet when she just needs to get away. I love being with my sister, I love the stupid things we say. I love sitting here and watching tv with her and laughing at how stupid we are.

I am so grateful for you Nikki, and I hope that you know I love you and Tristan!